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June 8, 2014 · 3:10 am

Adventures of Short Sleeping: I Sincerely Want This to Stay

Welcome back to my Short Sleep Cycle Adventures!

As of typing this it is almost 1700EST and I feel really good. Last night (this morning, I suppose) was my second night at a 4 hour sleep schedule and so far, it’s working great! The best thing that I’ve noticed so far is that everything feels like it’s slowed down for me. I’m not rushing to beat a clock and I am able to take on more work WHILE having more time to follow my hobbies, such as this blog.

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Super Human Powers? The Adventures of Short Sleeping

It’s no secret to people that know me that sleep and I are tentative acquaintances at the very best. Sleep and I don’t quite get along, she lets me hang out, but really just enough to get by. I’m tired of it, so I made an appointment to get myself into a sleep clinic.

For full disclosure, I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression, slight anti-social disorder, and have had a history of alcohol abuse. All of these conditions are well managed and by all accounts I have an excellent life. I do work too much, but day-to-day stresses are not that big in my list of things to worry about. In fact, I don’t spend much time worrying about anything these days.

I do drink coffee and tea, but low to no caffeine. I probably drink 1 to 3 fully caffeinated drinks a day, if that. I don’t eat a lot of sugar, I don’t eat right before bed, I work out on a regular basis. I’m a healthy person by almost all standards.

I suppose that’s why my inability to sleep more than 2 hours at a time is starting to grate on me. I’m busy. If I honestly don’t need 8 hours of sleep and instead can do something else and spend more time awake and doing things, I’m going to do it. Here’s what my NORMAL sleep pattern looks like:

11:30pm Went to bed

1:00am Woke up – Showered, watch a video, had a pint of water, refilled water glass

2:40am Went to bed

2:53am Got up – Drank 1/3 pint of water

2:56am Went to bed

3:56am Woke up – Drank 1/3 pint of water

3:57am Went to bed

5:10am Woke up – Finished water, refilled water glass

5:20am Went to bed

7:00am Alarm woke up – reset alarm

7:10am Alarm woke up – reset alarm

7:20am Alarm Got up for the day – Had more water [Late to work]

When I discussed this with my sleep doctor, he was fairly quick to assess that I may have what’s known as Shorted Sleep Cycle. ″What’s that?″ I asked. ″It basically means that you only need 4 to 5 hours of sleep a night″ he replies.

″That’s a THING?″

I think that perhaps my enthusiasm shocked him. He nodded, however, and said ″it’s exceptionally rare, but yes, it’s a thing″.

Short Sleepers are people (about 1% of the general population) that function best on half of a regular sleep cycle. If I truly am a member of this mutant club, it means that I only need 4-5 hours of sleep a night. Getting more than that won’t hurt me, but I don’t need it. My body isn’t really having trouble falling asleep, it’s just not wanting to sleep that long.

This excites me! As I am typing this, I’m quite content at 1:30am. I feel like this may be a THING I can do! I got extra things done for my second job! I’m productive!! So, we’ll see if I actually sleep a full 4 hours straight, or if this is going to be a bust. Regardless, I’ll take you all along for the ride. See you guys tomorrow, where I will update what Short Sleeping really is, tell you about how I handled my first day on the 4 hour schedule, and talk a bit about my lack of jet-lag.

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I′m Not ″one of the Guys″


I′ve been debating this post for a while now, not because anything happened, just because I randomly think about it and then let it go. The whole ″one of the guys″ thing has bothered me for a while, for reasons I really couldn′t quite put into words. That was, until this morning after a conversation with my fiancée.

We′re discussing the future as all betrothed couples eventually do. She′s going to be graduating soon and is currently looking for work. I, on the other side of the coin, am established in a job. Thankfully for both of us, I could drop one job and make a passable living at writing OR she could perhaps work remotely. We′re going to make this work, we just have to figure out what parts of my puzzle fit properly with hers.

However, the idea of dropping my established job makes my chest seize up unexpectedly. It isn′t that I′m working in a gay-friendly environment. In truth the HR department turns up the professionalism to about 9000 when I mention partner benefits or my marriage. I′m in the closet because I am legitimately worried about losing my job over my sexuality. What I have found isn′t a place where the company itself is that worthwhile. Instead, I′ve found a team that I belong on.

I′m the only lady in the biomed shop as a technician. I′m a damn good technician and I work closely with everyone else on my team. They accept my pink hair, my tattoos, and well, like R said yesterday at E′s retirement lunch: ″We′re techs, everyone of us is quirky″.

It hit me with those words that I′m not one of the guys to them. I′m me. I′m Lily. To them, Lily isn′t the token girl or a dude. I′m a person. A person that they may not always understand or agree with, but a person just the same. This is the acceptance I′ve found in my friends and I′d much, MUCH rather be Lily than something I′m not. I′m not a guy.

I think that′s what bothered me all this time about that phrase. Being ″one of the guys″ often means hiding individuality. It requires, in part, sacrificing things that make you who you are in exchange for fitting the appropriate ″uniform″ of culture. This means that you′re not supposed to call out things that bother you, that you′re supposed to just accept certain things. I′m not going to do that anymore.

While I′m sure it′s made me abrasive to some, and certainly I know people dislike me. However, what it hasn′t lost me? Is real friends. Instead I have found that the people I love are still right alongside me. Because they are there for me, not for any role I play.


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I Am the Little Sister: A 90’s Lesbian’s Input on Gone Home

And ANOTHER guest spot! I loved this game.

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gone home game portrait

The following is  guest post written by the magnificent Lily Xavier. You can check out her blog here.

Gone Home was one of those games that I wasn’t going to pick up until Robyn mentioned that she would be interested in seeing my input on it. She didn’t spoil me at all to the plot, but she spoke so highly of it that the following weekend I pulled the game up and got down to business. All in all, I played the game from start to finish over the weekend, and I have to say I’m impressed on multiple levels. What it did was very simple: it told a story through a window character. How it did it, however, was complex enough to be beautiful without being pretentious.

And trust me, I was in high school in the 90s, I know pretentious. Below are going to be SPOILERS, so…

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Where are the Big Name Horror Games?

Almost forgot about this! My newest guest spot on Nerd Person Narrative!

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Fatal Frame Crimson Butterfly

The following is  guest post written by the glorious Lily Xavier. You can check out her blog here.

You have to understand that I’m one of those old school horror gamers. I’ve played every title of horror game that has been presented to me (and I’ve watched a good deal of playthroughs of games that I can’t get my hands on). I’ve logged in hours on Clock Tower; I played Rule of Rose; I still go back and replay Fatal Frame II on occasion; in short, I love horror games.  These days, however, when I’m looking for a title to spark my spooks, I’ve stopped looking for big name games. Instead, I’m playing things like The Path, or other small store, Indy based games. I can’t put my finger on why, but it seems so difficult to find a horror game these days from a big company…

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Quoth the Raven: The They on the Ether

Over at Terrible Minds, Chuck Wendig does a “flash fiction challenge” using this random story title generator. I gave it a spin and I’m actually really interested in the results! I’ll be posting a small fic once a week or so, nothing fancy, just going to post the title or the prompt and roll with it. You’re all welcome to play along or shoot me a prompt to add to my list of prompts and dates.

Today’s prompt is: The They on the Ether


Quoth the Raven: The They on the Ether

There is an atmosphere that is between physical and mythical and it’s far and away where the most dangerous things dwell. They wait at the border in hissing contempt for those who live on either side. It’s a combined three realm effort to keep them contained.

This means, of course, that they aren’t always going to be where they should. They’re not very polite and they don’t follow rules. I’m not going to get into the whole rulebook or the orders of knights or libraries on you. That’s just too much and it’s all common sense or nonsense depending.

Just be aware that sometimes it’s best to lock your door and draw the window shades tight. Listen to that feeling you get that creeps up the back of your neck when you walk by a mirror and refuse to look yourself in the eye. Those little notions aren’t all that silly, you never know what will look right back at you.

I’m not here to scare you at all, just to make you aware. Sometimes you’ll get that feeling walking by a person too. You listen to it extra careful then. Those are the ones that got out of the mirror.

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